"I asked GOD how much time do I have to live? And he said.....long enough to make a difference." ~~~"To the world you might be just one person. But to one person, you might be the world."
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
SHARE Christmas Service and Serenity
The song that you are listening too is one that every time Serenity hears she says "oh, mama this is your song." So one day I caught the name and listened to it. It is a very beautiful song. I am blessed to have Serenity! She is so incredible! A little side note is her art is being featured at school in the gallery. It is so cool!
Tonight was the Share Christmas Service and it was very nice. I took a couple of pics but, it is not really a picture taking event. Dinner was donated by Panera Bread. They started off the night with everyone sharing a little of their story. I had no desire to go up but, my precious Serenity really wanted me to so up I went with her by my side. I could just kick myself for not asking her if she had anything to say. UUGGH! Then we all lit candles and listened to a Christmas song. After that we all hung our ornaments on the tree. Then named off all of our babies who are wanted, loved and missed. It was a very nice service and it meant a lot that Serenity was with me. Thanks for such a special evening SHARE girls. The event was very hard but, nice. Please pray for all of them.
Then we came home to a card from a secret friend. Just what I needed whoever you are-perfect timing!! The card is addressed from Colorado Springs but, no return to sender address or name in the card. Tonight was just a card to say this person was thinking of us and gave us a few certificates to Baskin Robbins. THANK YOU! This is priceless to my heart and actually distracted me from a very sad night with Aaron out of town (not a good combo)!
The holidays are getting harder and I am praying that I can make it through them. I am doing all I can so please, be patient with me. We should be planning a baby's 1st Christmas but, I am still trying to design a marker for the cemetery. Designing a marker for my son is not what I would recommend around the holidays but, I really want it in by Christmas! I have taken too long but, I have done what I could! I will be sending proofs soon so be ready!
I have a swirling head, heart and soul of emotions and at times it is hard to even breathe. Sometimes I do good but, other times I feel like I am just beginning my journey. A hard moment this week is when Serenity tells a story (she remembers EVERYTHING)..."Remember when we were at Nana Vicki and Papa Alan's house and we were all singing Happy Birthday." I said "yes." "Serenity says well they all call you Treasure but, I call you mama." I say, "Yes, because to them I am Treasure and to you I am your mommy. Only you and baby brother am I mommy." She thinks a second and says, "yes, you are." "Oh, mommy I miss baby brother and wish I had someone to play with." Aaron and I's hearts break, we were so close. We did all we could! Even as I read this I want to delete the last sentence. But, I will not tonight! If I had known his life was in danger, I WOULD of gone to the hospital.
One last thing, tomorrow is the meeting with an artist for the scuplture for the Healing Garden at the Ronald McDonald house. I am so excited and will be posting pics of the garden. It looks incredible! What an honor to have a garden being dedicated in Sterling's memory. I LOVE RMH!
Tonight was the Share Christmas Service and it was very nice. I took a couple of pics but, it is not really a picture taking event. Dinner was donated by Panera Bread. They started off the night with everyone sharing a little of their story. I had no desire to go up but, my precious Serenity really wanted me to so up I went with her by my side. I could just kick myself for not asking her if she had anything to say. UUGGH! Then we all lit candles and listened to a Christmas song. After that we all hung our ornaments on the tree. Then named off all of our babies who are wanted, loved and missed. It was a very nice service and it meant a lot that Serenity was with me. Thanks for such a special evening SHARE girls. The event was very hard but, nice. Please pray for all of them.
Then we came home to a card from a secret friend. Just what I needed whoever you are-perfect timing!! The card is addressed from Colorado Springs but, no return to sender address or name in the card. Tonight was just a card to say this person was thinking of us and gave us a few certificates to Baskin Robbins. THANK YOU! This is priceless to my heart and actually distracted me from a very sad night with Aaron out of town (not a good combo)!
The holidays are getting harder and I am praying that I can make it through them. I am doing all I can so please, be patient with me. We should be planning a baby's 1st Christmas but, I am still trying to design a marker for the cemetery. Designing a marker for my son is not what I would recommend around the holidays but, I really want it in by Christmas! I have taken too long but, I have done what I could! I will be sending proofs soon so be ready!
I have a swirling head, heart and soul of emotions and at times it is hard to even breathe. Sometimes I do good but, other times I feel like I am just beginning my journey. A hard moment this week is when Serenity tells a story (she remembers EVERYTHING)..."Remember when we were at Nana Vicki and Papa Alan's house and we were all singing Happy Birthday." I said "yes." "Serenity says well they all call you Treasure but, I call you mama." I say, "Yes, because to them I am Treasure and to you I am your mommy. Only you and baby brother am I mommy." She thinks a second and says, "yes, you are." "Oh, mommy I miss baby brother and wish I had someone to play with." Aaron and I's hearts break, we were so close. We did all we could! Even as I read this I want to delete the last sentence. But, I will not tonight! If I had known his life was in danger, I WOULD of gone to the hospital.
One last thing, tomorrow is the meeting with an artist for the scuplture for the Healing Garden at the Ronald McDonald house. I am so excited and will be posting pics of the garden. It looks incredible! What an honor to have a garden being dedicated in Sterling's memory. I LOVE RMH!
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