We had a nice anniversary and went to do the walk in memory of Sterling. It is so hard when someone says "he is so perfect, what happened?" I know that they have the best of intentions but, he was so perfect and I don't know is so hard.
The walk was organized by SHARE, they are the best group of "sisters" that I am honored to know and have support and hold me up at times.
The walk was so nice and was really special to me. I even won a door prize that I love. It is a very special cross that reads "Little I knew that morning, God was going to call your name, in life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone, for part of me went with you, the day God called you home. You left us beautiful memories, your love is still our guide, and though we cannot see you, you are always by our side. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same, but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again." I hope to have pics posted when I get them. Even though this poem reads ....lose you, I did not lose Sterling. I know where he is.
We had a nice remembrance walk and it was a beautiful day with Stealth's flying over us, bombers and other planes for the Air Force/Navy game.
Later that day Aaron and I went to church and to see the movie Fireproof (which my dad HIGHLY recommended). It was a very good movie and we are going to the Fireproof conference at our church on Nov. 1st -oh, yeah I forgot to tell Aaron :)
I heard a woman on TV talking about her breast cancer today from GMA she said "everyone has something". But, the best thing I heard all day was "make your mess your message." I do not feel that Sterling was my mess but, I can appreciate the concept.
Serenity continues to crack us up and love us. She is a miracle and we are so blessed to have her here with us. She went roller skating with Awanas tonight and she is so fast and so independent. I never knew those little, long legs would go that fast. She is doing great in school and has so many cute little friends. She truly continues to amaze us every day and I am proud to be her mommy.
Along this journey there have been good days, and some very bad days. You learn to be a clown and put on your make-up and get on with the day-to-day things. People do not want to hear "it all". Please continue to pray for us and all of the families that are struggling. I know of one mom who is struggling very severely with depression, I have recommended her to get support like my Stephen Minister and a close sphere for the "going no where fast moments."
Thanks for continuing to support us and one more prayer request. Please pray for October 15th. This event is so special to my heart. I have tried to be disobedient to God many times and not pursue the event. But, God has opened the door and the door has smacked me in the back of the head many times (opening so hard). God spoke to me about the event much earlier in my journey.
The vision for the event was to bring someone a glimmer of hope who is a non-believer and to heal a heart for a mom, dad and/or family member that was told to "get over it" and not allowed to grieve.
This will be non-denominational and everyone is welcome regardless of their church affiliation. I really want it to be a community event. Jared Anderson from New Life will be performing and Dr. Weary (my OB) has been INCREDIBLY supportive. There have been a lot of incredible people making this event happen and regardless of my feelings at the moment it has continued to grow stronger. Stu Davis, one of the pastors at New life and Lana Rockwell are two of the best people and have really been there through all of this.
Please light a candle at 7pm your time. Blessings to you all!