New song on Playlist....

I had written this song down a few months ago but, did nothing with it. Then tonight I decided to blog and change my songs. This song just came to mind and I of course looked it up. I am a Casting Crowns fan but, had never heard this song. I clicked on it in playlist and it started to play and I of course started to cry. I love this song and I hope that after the 1st time hearing it and crying that you will hear the powerful words.
I have really been struggling with birthdays and if you have had one I am sorry~ every time I try to buy a card I loose my mind. I am not sure why this is so hard but, my sweet husband has not received a birthday card, an anniversary card or presents from me. I have tried many times for him and many other people but, cannot do it. I am sorry!
This of course, leads into more fears that I have regarding the upcoming holidays that are looming around the corner at me. I pray that GOD gives me the strength to make it through them and be strong but, you never know since cards seem impossible for me to purchase.

We also went to the cemetary this past weekend to find another baby buried by Sterling. In case you have lost count this is 7 in six months. This is such an outrageous event and I am horrified by it! I am so sad that another family has to be enduring our journey with us.

Something that has really been weighing on my mind is our parents. I want to know how you are all holding up? There is really no support out there for grandparents and I know that you feel the loss for two. I also know that the loss is different than mine and so many times you all feel like you have to be strong for us. Is there anything that you all need or anything that we can do to show our support for you all?

On a very good and positive note.....Beth from the Ronald McDonald house is going to ask the board to allocate money to our Healing Garden so that we can get all of the items that we want for the garden i.e. custom bronze life-size statues (we have a vision of this to be of 4 children playing and it will feature Serenity and Sterling together), our fence, arbor, pavers, concrete benches, remaining grasses and flowers. We still have a lot to do but, the garden is really coming along and we are still making progress day by day. Chris, Beth, Susan, Aaron, Lyn and all of the volunteers are really moving this project along. It will be such a bittersweet day when the dedication comes around.

October 15th

October 15th was an amazing event!
Jared Anderson performed a song called Heaven that he wrote after he lost his first child. This song is a heart song and to most "it speaks to their soul". I would agree with that as well. Aaron and I were very honored to spend a few minutes with Jared and his wife Megan.
Stu, did an amazing job with planning the event, being supportive, and making the event so nice. It is always so nice to spend time with Stu after all he has supported us through! He truly is an amazing guy!
Dr. Weary had just arrived in town and showed up much to my surprise! Aaron and I were happy to see him as I am sure that other families were as well.
Our family and friends continue to amaze us by supporting us in all we do. We appreciate the support, love & prayers.
There is one story that I would like to share from parents who came and sent us an email after the event. They came to the event from Denver.
They have lost seven children. 1 (12) week miscarriage, 5 ectopic's where she lost her tubes, then she had IVF and was pregnant with boy/girl twins. At 21-22 weeks her little girl was born alive for a few hours and her son was stillborn. She is now 25 weeks pregnant with a little girl who is due in January. Please pray for her and her family that she delivers a healthy baby girl!
We will see what GOD has in store for next year. My heart and soul are open to what he has in store.